kid fears

it's a chilly night. the sky is dark and clear, the stars giving their greeting. the air crisp and fresh, cool as i inhale on my cigarette. i can see my breath, or is that the smoke, as i exhale. my nose wants to run and my eyes tighten in an effort to protect.

i have been fighting the cold this year. entering this winter season with much intrepidation. carefully stepping, one foot in front of the other. it was this time last year that i had entered into the darkest place i've ever been. i fear the darkness now...finding myself checking around corners and under the bed...