too fucking hot!

so, if you hadn't noticed, i've been gone for a week. vacation can be such a beautiful thing...unless of course, you're me! last week sucked! i'm not talking about a little 'sucked', i'm talking about the end all of vacation suckage!!! i had very little time to myself, so writing was not an option except on monday of last week. seeing as how my vacation had only really begun that sunday, i didn't know it was going to suck so bad...i even had a pretty good outlook on the whole thing. so the following is what i wrote last monday on vacation...to follow later, maybe tomorrow when i’m a little more awake, will be the details of vacation suckage!!

7/25/05
i think it's the 25th, but it could be the 26th. to be honest, i really don't know. i do know that it's monday. and i know that it is fucking hot. i'm not talking about a little 90-degree weather here. i'm talking about it's like 105-degrees and humid as all get out! there is an occasional movement of air in this little holler, but not much. and even then it's like a moving haze. you can literally watch it over the next ridge. light blue sky that looks as though you are peering thru a filter of milky white. the green of the trees covered in a hazy blue, not as crisp as the deep forest and emerald of the trees on this hill. it is fucking hot. it's really all i've been able to think about. i want to be outside but the inside is so tempting with it's dark coolness. i just don't want to sleep, i'm too awake for that.

it's nice to be home. i'm in ohio at the nappy palace. (and by palace i mean a basement with a roof on it, but that is a story for a different day. can anyone say ‘whitetrash beautiful’?) it is spectacular to look at and be in southeastern ohio. did i mention it is fucking hot?! there is nothing quite like crossing the border from pennsylvania or west virginia into this state. and to look out into the field next to me - to stare at the queen anne's lace and the yellow of the golden rod, swaying with a hint of a breeze - is overwhelming. there is no stress today. for me, there is always a hint of desire for a much simpler life. i get to find that here for the short periods of time i get to visit.

oh my God it is so fucking hot! my skin is coated with a fine film of sweat. my forehead is almost to the point of dripping onto these pages. and my eyes are heavy for rest against this blinding white film that is reflecting and radiating that sun. it is fucking hot!