one more monday...

for those of you that may not know, i have one more monday to go. what i mean by that is i have one more monday before i leave my job. six and a half years and one more monday.

it was a long road to this decision, but for the first time since i had baby girl i've decided to take some time off. i feel like it's the first time i could take some time off...but i'm not completely sure that's a true statement or if i just told myself it was.

so november 2 is my last day...it's a friday, still two more of those left. but one more monday and then i get to spend afternoons with baby girl. i am excited at the mere thought of it. i have been asking myself for some time now why i'm spending so much time in a job that i get little to no satisfaction from. the stress and ill feelings far outweigh the gratification for me. and i just couldn't identify why i would continue to put myself through that when all i really wanted to do was find a way to spend more time with her. she is amazing and she amazes me and i feel like i'm missing it. so i'm not going to do that anymore...after one more monday.

i've never thought of myself as a mommy kind of mom...but secretly i kind of want to be. so i'm going to try that and see how it fits. i don't know whats going to happen...i still don't know what i want to be when i grow up...but that's not really what's important at this point in the journey. right now it's about her and my relationship with her and right now she needs me and right now i kind of need her too.

she gives me stars when she runs out of kisses.