sometimes i think magic might be real.

her blue body everything we know

i'm not sure when my body started to get old, i just know it did.

i woke up last saturday morning with the normal stiffness that comes with a night of semi-restful sleep. i stretched this way and that, and then i felt it...a shooting pain in my right shoulder. i had known it was there, getting progressively worse over the last couple of weeks, but i had been resting it and didn't expect it to get any worse. then i got in the shower and reached around my body to wash my back when suddenly an involuntary scream came rushing out of my mouth. the pain shooting up and down and thru my shoulder was mind numbing. it was like someone had taken a nail cover bat and slammed it down on my shoulder and then twisted and turned until the tears rolled from my eyes...yeah, it was that bad.

i'm not sure when my shoulders and back began to hurt, i just know they did.

and now i start the journey of repairing the bursitis in my right shoulder, the tendonitis in both shoulders, and oh yeah, my worthless rotor cuffs too. i will say this though...today i got to have the BEST FUCKING MASSAGE EVER! and tomorrow the physical therapy begins...

i heart old people...sometimes.

there was a sweet 83 year old man who called me at the office today...i talk to a lot of old people with my job. typically they tend to keep you on the phone for awhile with random stories of the weather, family, going to the beach and getting in the cold water to jump start their heart. they're not all cute and sweet by the way, some are mean and crotchety old fuckers. just sayin'.

the one who called today was funny and witty and chatted for quite awhile about nothing too important. and yet i found myself, there in the middle of my busy day, allowing him to wander with the conversation, following his lead as we talked of this and that. before we hung up the phone he said to me, in a quiet sentimental voice, "life goes by so quickly, like a moment in a quiet dream..."

i thought that was nice.